I'm sorry, first of all. I don't know what to do anymore, I feel like when you get sad like this and I can't cheer you up but asses like Keanie can make you smile, I'm not good at what I do anymore. Then again, asses like Keanie are bound to be more funny than I am. I just wish I could take away your pain. About the not wanting to hear it thing, I was kind of drunk last night... so, I don't know. I'm sorry though. I'm sorry that I can't help you. I can't take away your pain. I'm here for you like I always am. As much as I can be... but is it enough? I feel like me not being able to fully be here for you like I used to is going to push you away from me. It terrifies me, frankly. I don't want to lose you but I'm not going to be able to be around as much, I mean that's just a fact... I'm going to be joining the Rescue Squad and Fire Department here soon, and then I'll have to pull hour duties, not to mention if I actually make friends I'll have stuff to do. This is my once chance for some quietness for you and I and for me to actually have a good time down here, and I'm fucking up both of them. .-. I'm sorry...
I hope you are not angry or upset with me that I can't be here as much this week... I hope I'm not unintentionally going to push you away. I hope I can cheer you up soon. I feel like your always irritated with me now. .-.
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