Meh...

I had a dream you got angry I wasn't around so much and left me... I remember in this dream feeling incredibly depressed, like badly. It was scary. I know you're probably tired of hearing this from me, but I'm sorry I can't be around as much right now. And I have so much going on, I just hate to make you upset or anything. I'm kind of going through a rough time right now... between my moms liver failing and my uncle dying, and they told my mom that she was pre-diabetic, that's what took Greg away from me... I can't lose my mom too. That'll mean pretty much every person I ever truly cared for family wise, will be gone. My grandpa, the only person who deserves to be called my dad, my uncle and my mom if something happens to her. Gah. I can't handle this shit right now. I'm scared. And don't think for a second that I don't miss you... I miss you so much it's not even funny. I just can't be there as much as I used to be able to. Too much going on right now. Nothing can go right for any extended period of time, course not... that'd be too easy. Ugh.