As frustrations build...

I feel so frustrated right now I feel like sobs are going to start fucking ripping through me. You really have struck a nerve tonight, and you can close to having me angry with you. I am always there, I always care you know this. Even if it doesn't seem like it, I do. Even if I'm a little distracted with something else, I do. I am not always going to be that attentive little puppy. But god when I am not, you jump so fast to the "You don't care" card. And that fucking sucks, honestly. That you hop so fast to that, like it's a common thing for me to treat you like shit or not listen to you or something. Not, "Oh hey... maybe he's just a little busy." No, no... because I'm a grade A ass I guess. Fuck. And then just now when you are trying to be straight forward it really seems like you're having to spell every little thing out to me because fuck maybe Paxton won't understand. I know you're not meaning to, but fuck. And then you saying that your problems aren't as great as mine, insinuating that I say they are? I mean, what. When do I ever do that? I don't know. I don't know with you right now. If it was at all your intentions to make me feel like complete shit? Good job, reckon you succeeded at that. Because fuck I do. I feel like you honestly think I belittle your problems and don't care. I mean, I try not to? Maybe I do? I mean I don't know... I think I'm just gonna curl up and just break for now.  Maybe that's just what I need, I don't know. I don't care right now, honestly.