I love you this big.

So, I was told to write this. I mean what the heck, not like I mind. I have a song stuck in my head called I love you this big. I used to not like Scotty McCreery, but I do now. Quite a bit. He was an American Idol winner. But yeah, I can't believe how in love with you I am. It started out as a little feeling back in August, just laying there and it just like hit me in the face. Hey, you're falling for that girl and you know you are. I was scared to death. I thought you'd completely turn me down because of all the shit that happened before. Taking our relationship that extra leap forward. It took you three months to be ready to be with me. But, I don't even care.  Waiting was so worth it. Any other girl, I would not have waited for. Fuck that. What is it with you? You change me, in a good way. Cured my insanity. Because, we all know I was insane. But, knowing that you were mine now. I have no desire at all to ever mess that up. I can't believe I can completely and honestly say, I would absolutely adore to spend the rest of my life with you. Settle down, have kids with you, have our own house. I know it's /waaaay/ to early to even consider any of this. But, everytime I look at you now I think to myself, "this is the girl for me. This is who I want to grow old with. Live my life with." I know I've told you what is gonna happen to me if we don't make it, and I know it upsets you. But, who else would be able to handle my mess like you? No one. You're understand, you're caring. You love me. You get me. No one will ever compare to you. Ever. Haha. You're gorgeous, even if you think you're average. Not to me. You are your biggest critic. But, I see you different than anyone else in the world. And you are mine. My absolutely gorgeous girl. My life now, really. Thank you for being everything and more that I have ever needed. Thank you for being there for me when I'm having my meltdowns and everything. You'll never know how much it really means to me. I want to do so much with you. Everyday. Small stuff, big stuff. I don't care. I just want to live my life with you. Through our amazing times and our bad times. I just want you by my side, always.