I'm scared.

     I'm scared of what's gonna happen. I love you so much. And I know you're able to read this, and that you will read this. And that's okay. I just feel awkward writing this to you directly? I guess. I don't know. Don't mind me, I guess.
     I'm scared of losing you. I'm scared of the future. I'm scared of what may or may not happen to us. Damnit, I love you so much. I love you more than I probably should. You've said if something happens to one of us, your world may crash. Mine will too. Ohmygod thinking about what might happen to us, scaaaares me to death, girl. You mean so much to me. More than I have ever cared about anyone. Yeah, I've had crushes, false alarm loves. But, nothing. And I do mean nothing has ever even come close to what you and I have. I hear about other people in relationships now that can't talk to each other in worry that they will get mad and not talk to eachother. And just constantly fighting over petty stuff. And it's like.... wow that's what I had. But, not with you. Even if someday we do end up getting into a big fight, I think we'll be fine. I think we can handle it because, well we do love each other. We love each other a lot. and reckon that's all that matters, yeah?
     I like... need you in my life now, or I won't be like, the same anymore. All this is just a giant rant about how I don't want to lose you, really. Even though there's no danger of losing you anytime soon. Distance sucks right? You're a half a world away. But damnit, fuck that. You are mine. Mine. I'm not letting you go anytime soon unless something happens that forces us to. But, I don't know what would. I don't know. I don't knooooow. An entire blog post about you. Haha. I love you, so much. I want you forever. I want to be with you forever. Grow up with you. Meet and live wherever we want. I don't know. Who knows what will happen though, right? That's a long time away. Too long.